Friday, 13 January 2017

Beautylish 2017 Lucky Bag










This morning my 2017 Beautylish Lucky Bag finally arrived and I thought I'd jump on the bandwagon and do an unboxing for you.

Every year Beautylish do these lucky dip bags for $75 and you get items valuing at least twice that amount. I am an international customer, so on top that I have to pay $15 shipping and $18 duty so in total my bag/box costs $108 roughly £89.

From watching a lot of un-boxings I knew what the first item was from the shape before I even unwrapped it. And sadly I wasn't very happy about it. It was the Wayne Goss "The Brow Set". Don't get me wrong the brand is fantastic, however I don't do my brows. The item itself is worth $55 so I knew right off the bat a large chuck of the value of the box was an item I wouldn't get much use from.



The next item was also one I was hoping not to get. It was Clean Apothecary - brush shampoo in rose. I am loyal to my beauty blender solid, nothing works as well as it does. I will give this a try, but I would have rather just skipped it. It sells for £15 on Beautylish so not worth a lot from the total of the box so I can live with it.



Next up was RMS- Buriti Bronzer retailing for $28 on Beautylish. This product is listed as a bronzer, however, it is packaged like a cream shadow you'd struggle to get a bronzer brush in the pot. RMS is not a brand I've used so I can't comment on that. I did swatch the product and it feels like an oily mess. I think as a bronzer it would clog pores and break me out and as a cream shadow it would crease like a bitch, so I think i'll be passing this item on.

The next item in the box was the IT Cosmetics - Super Hero mascara. I've heard good things about it. It's a good brand and I'll use it so I'm happy about that. Not really wowed by it being in the box, but useful. It retails for $24 on Beautylish.

I have mixed feeling about the next item, Jeffree Star - Velour Liquid Lipstick in Androgymy. I love the color and have I heard good things about the formula. However, I don't support Jeffree Star. In the same way I don't buy Lime Crime, I don't buy Jeffree Star. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it. Like I said I love the color and I didn't buy it as such, but, I think I might have to give it away. It retails for $18.



The last item in the box was one I was actually happy to see. It was the Natasha Denona eyeshadow palette 02. I won't waffle on about this, everyone and their dog knows how high quality her shadows are. These 5 pan pallets retails $48 on Beautylish and if you can swing them are worth every penny.

My total lucky bag was worth $188, with shipping and duty I paid  $108 for mine. I wouldn't have paid $108 for the items in the box personally. However, that's just the luck of the draw and risk you take with any beauty box. That said, I will try and land myself another box next year and hopefully I'll like it a little better.

Did you get the 2017 lucky bag? And if you did, what did you get in yours? Let me know in the comment box below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch
xoxoxo





Friday, 6 January 2017

“Surviving the Holidays Single”

Over the holidays, I’ve seen hundreds of these “how to” post on surviving the holiday season single.  And I’m not going to knock them; most of the posts I saw were incredibly well written and clearly hit their niche market. For the most part they did their job; they were entertaining, got views and who knows, maybe even helped a person or two.

However, I, being the bitch I am, am here to say the one thing I didn’t see in any of those posts...

If you are having to read one these “how to survive being single” posts, STAY SINGLE!

I don’t mean this to be mean, even though I’m not sure I can say that without sounding that way. I am saying it from a lovely, caring place. If you are having to survive being single, you need to work on you. If you can’t be happy alone, you won’t be happy in a relationship. That advice is as old as the hills for a reason, it’s tried and tested.

If you’ve been here a while, you’ll know even I’ve fallen into that trap and felt my self-worth was tied to whom I was dating. I had to take that advice myself and take a massive step back and pick up the pieces and learn to love me again.

I’ve been single this whole holiday season and for a lot of time before that, and I can honestly say the fact I was single didn’t enter my mind once this holiday season, not even on New Years Eve when I had nobody to kiss at midnight. I was just happy being off work spending the time with my loved ones and also enjoying some much needed me time.

As always these are just my thoughts on the matters, feel free to leave me yours; do you think there is a need for singles survivor guides? Let me know in the comments box below and as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo


Friday, 30 December 2016

Moving On To 2107

As I sit here and think about everything that has happened over the past 12 months, I can’t help, but be pleased that 2016 is finally over.

My love life has been dull and barely existent. And to be fair the bits that have existed, I really wish hadn’t.

My social life and health has been poor, both clearly linked. Due to back problems and stress I just haven’t been as active and that has had a knock on effect to other parts of my life.

My work life has been stale, unrewarding and stressful. I mean I broke my damn toe because of my frustration at work… that’s not normal.

That said, despite all the negativity 2016 has brought, I can’t help but be somewhat optimistic for 2017.

I’m starting the year back on track with my blog, even though the social media side is still lagging, the actual site is getting regular content. I have a big night out planned for the end of January which should be good for both my social life and my working relationships. I’m starting 2017 with a 2-grand pay raise. So, 2017 isn’t looking hopeless by any means. There’s actually a lot to looking forward to.

I just hope it stays moving in that direction. And on that oddly positive note, I am going to leave you and make an early start on my New Years drinking. But, before I go, I have this question for you; what are you optimistic for in 2017? Let me know in the comment box below and as always, stay and play safe.

Love,


The Honest Bitch 
xoxoxo

Friday, 23 December 2016

Unavailable Men

When I sit, and think about my problems when it comes to dating it all boils down to one main issue; unavailable men.

Mr. X is the prime example, he’s married now. No matter what there is or was or what feeling may be there. He is married.

There's a guy at work that keeps hinting he’s unhappy in his relationship and wants to take me out, but the bottom line being he’s in a relationship. There’s no point in entertaining him…. He’s unavailable.

This seems to be a trend lately and it really needs to stop, I am 30 next year, and it’s about fucking time I go at least got one aspect of my life together.  I’m not saying I need to find love, I just want the options the universe presents to be actual options. I don’t think that’s too much to ask really.

Anyways, I’m back at work tonight for my last 4 before Christmas and I think I am going to go and get dressed and put some fuel in my car to save running around tonight. But before I go I have this question for you, what aspect of your life do you wish you could get your shit together in? Let me know in the comment box below and as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday, 16 December 2016

Repeating History

Let me start this post by fully acknowledging I’m an idiot who clearly hasn’t learned from the past. Do you remember a post I did in May 2015 called Skulls are Softer than Poles? In that post I explained that I lost my temper at work kicked a post, broke my toe. You know because I’m an adult.

Last week at work after dealing with a menopausal bitch driver and a co-worker who has no understanding of time, I lost my temper. I didn’t kick a pole this time, apparently, I learned something. However, I did kick a large yellow grit container resulting in the same thing… I broke my toe… Once again because clearly, I’m an adult.

Last time I forgot how to be an adult and melted down like Britany Spears 2007. I followed up by quitting my job. I decided no job was worth being so upset over. This time, I’m not sure what my plan is. My stress level was not helped by the fact I was forced into a situation I didn’t want to be in. Things that night were not the norm. That said, I am not happy where I am. 

Anyways, I won’t be making any life decisions tonight and it is time for some more pain killers and to get some sleep, because broken toe or not, I’m back in hell tomorrow. But before I go, I do have this question for you; What do you do to stay calm? Let me know in the comments below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday, 9 December 2016

Work Review

I’m a fairly nocturnal person, hence why night shifts have never bothered me. Yet for some reason on my first shift in my body refused to sleep and I’m awake before the damn birds. Maybe this lack of sleep is why my boss thinks I’m “aggressive”. Personally, I think my aggressiveness is triggered idiots, but I’m sure others won’t see it that way.

My Christmas review is coming up, hence why all this crap is running around my mind. Considering last year, I put my hand through a wall after my review, I’m hoping this one goes slightly better.  

Seeing as I haven’t actually seen my boss since my July review, where he called me “aggressive”, I can’t see this going well. Whatever he bases it on will be second hand rhetoric and that can’t be good for me, since being a “people person” isn’t a skill I excel in these days.

Anyways, wish me luck as I face another week of peak season in transport. But before I go, I have this question for you; what do you do to stay calm and non-aggressive at work? Let me know in the comment box below. And as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday, 2 December 2016

2016

I can’t believe it’s December already. I was lying in bed, unable to sleep thinking about the end of the year and what I’ve achieved in 2016.

And the answer to the above question is not a fucking lot.

Work wise I’m probably a step backwards. I haven’t been the most people pleasing person this year and that’s not ideal for job progression.  My boss likes kiss asses and that's just not me.

Blog wise; I ended up taking a lot of time off and am not anywhere near where I want to be with it.

Personal life remains pretty unchanged.

My love life is a distant memory and is looking unlikely to change anytime soon.

2016 hasn’t been the most productive year. It’s not been bad by any means, it’s just… been.

Anyways, that’s just what’s floating around my mind in the middle of the night. I think I am going to go and try and get some sleep. But before I go, I have this questions for you; how has 2016 been for you? Let me know in the comment box below and as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday, 25 November 2016

12 Wasted, but Wonderful Days

Today is my last day of 12 wonderful, magical days off work and I’m pleased to say I’ve done not a damn thing during that time. Hell, I think I’ve only been out of my pajamas once. And as unproductive as it’s been, it’s felt fantastic.

My real-life job has been so stressful lately, I thought about taking my old job back.  I think my brain and body needed to veg. It needed to reboot and restart. And mindless tasks like online shopping, playing computer games and binge watching House is just what I needed to feel less like I’m one moaning driver away from being arrested for attempted murder.

Despite wasting 12 days, I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. That said, it is Black Friday and I have some major online shopping to do before I return to the grind tomorrow night. But before I go I have this question for you; what has been your most relaxing holiday? Let me know in the comment box below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch  
xoxo

Friday, 18 November 2016

All Caught Up

It appears my blog has caught up with reality, due in large part to me spending the past 3 weeks suffering with that I can only assume at this point was the plague.

It feels weird knowing when I’m done writing and editing this post there will be no delay. I got kind of use to it. I know Mr. X would send me a message questioning something I wrote, most of the time I wouldn’t have a clue what he was on about. I’d have to go back and re-read my post…… and still not reply….. I was super sick.

I guess I should bring you up speed; Martin is dead, he’s been dead for well over a month. I decided I was too old to play games and frankly got bored.

I haven’t spoken to Mr. X, like I said I was sick and frankly, I’m still not 100%. I’m still trying to rest up, hence why this post is going to be short.

I’m currently on holiday from work, which is nice because I’m not in love with my job at the moment.  Something I’m planning on addressing while I’m off.

Anyways, I’m going to go and get some more sleep. Sorry, this is a bit of a throwaway post, but thanks to the bug I had, if my doctor is going to be believed, I’m going to worn down for a few weeks. Before I go, I have this question for you; what is your favorite way to recover from an illness? Let me know in the comment box below. And as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xox

Friday, 11 November 2016

Undecided

I’m having issue I don’t normally have, I can’t seem to make a solid judgment on Martin. Normally I know pretty quickly whether a guy is worth my time or a complete waste of space, but not this time. For whatever reason, when it comes to him, my mind keeps changing.

I was ready to write him off less than 6 days after I wrote my last post, I had decided he was a waste of time. Then my mind was swayed and I decided to let things play on. Then 2 days ago I had decided enough was enough and I was done. Then last night I swayed back to the play on position. 

I’m not really sure what the issue is; he hadn’t done anything major to be written off, I just get that time waster vibe and I’m getting a little old for time wasters. That said, he hasn’t done anything major to lead me to believe there’s anything there either.

He’s kind of just…. There. And, if I wanted just a giant blob of a man that there was no future with, I have Mr. X. I don’t need another romantic nothing, the role is already cast. Romantic love interested on the other hand…. Open casting call going on. However, the casting director is a major bitch and really hard to please.

It’s weird, my head isn’t even all over the place like I’d normally expect. it’s as if I’m deciding to read junk mail first or just throw it away unopened. Maybe, just maybe, I am not that into him. That said…. He is hot, really, really hot.

Anyways, I am going to go and grab a shower and then hopefully finish up a few more posts. We’re reaching peak season at work and if I got a head now, I’ll have no hope come December. But before I go, I had this question for you, is there anything wrong with not being decided on a relationship? Let me know your thoughts in the comment box below and as always, stay and play, safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday, 4 November 2016

Blast from The Past

It’s not often I received a friend request that actually makes me smile, normally there from what I call “green card man, I’m sure you know that type, creepy man from a dodgy part of the globe, whose request you instant decline.  However, last week was different, I received a request from someone who instantly put a smile on my face, a complete blast from the past.

When I worked for my previous company, before we moved locations, there was this lad in the warehouse, I’m going to call him Martin. He was one of the day shift supervisors, he was well put together, funny, knew shit, the only downfall he had was he was a little younger than me. That said, even back then I was willing to overlook that, which is completely unheard of, we all know I don’t do younger men.

Our paths didn’t cross too often, since I worked nights and he did days, but when they did, we’d always chat and joke around and flirt a little. But nothing ever came of it. When it came to light the site was closing, he joined the army and I stayed with the company. And with that we lost contact.

Then last week his name popped up in my friend requests, I knew who was it was straight away and I couldn’t help but smile. That said, I didn’t read a lot into it, ex co-workers add each other all the time. We had something like 12 friends in common, so odds are I just popped up as a suggestion. I accepted his request and started getting ready for work.

Less than 5 minutes later he popped up in my chat. It was pretty standard at first, I was a little shocked he remembered so much about me, it has been nearly 5 years. We continued messaging while I was at work that night, and then the message got a little flirty and started ending with “xx”. I don’t read a lot into that, but it’s a positive sign.

We continued to message for a few days, getting more and more flirty but nothing even PG-13. Just feeling each other out and trying to figure out each other intent. I’d say, neither of us have completely worked each other out yet. I’m not sure if he’s after a hook up or more. He’s in the army so I always put my money on just sex, but that wasn't his style when I worked with him. My other concern is he’s a little out of my league, words I never thought I’d have to say.  That said, I’m going to play the game and see where it goes. I mean Mr. X got me and I’m way the hell out of his league.

I haven’t been able to speak to Martin in a few days, he’s away on exercise, but once he’s back Friday I’m looking forward to seeing what’s there. And as I always say, if nothing else, I should get a few good blogs out of it.

Anyways, I am going to go and get some sleep, it’s been a long few days. But before I go I have this question for you, have you ever dated anyone out of your league and how did it end? Let me know in the comment box below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch  
xoxo

Friday, 28 October 2016

The Mr. X Relationship

I always get a lot of questions about Mr. X and my relationship, and I get it, we have a weird fucking relationship. I’d be curious too. A lot of you were here and went through it all with me and to think I’d still have anything to do with him boggles your minds. I completely understand and if I were in your shoes…. I’d question my sanity too.

I can categorically say, if he ever actually had the title of boyfriend, we wouldn’t be having this conversation. He'd be dead to me, no second changes, or thirds. He’d be dead. He’s survived all this time on a technicality.

Because our whole relationship has existed in this grey area, I’ve been able to tell myself the feeling I felt were unjust. I had no right to feel that way. I’m a perfectly sane, crazy person so I know the above to be untrue and I have every right to feel whatever I felt. However, it allowed to get to a place where I could try and understand the other side and forgive and more importantly grow.

Over the years, I’ve become incredibly grateful to Mr. X for the growth. I know without a doubt; I wouldn’t be me if it wasn’t for the saga that was him. Don’t get me wrong, life isn’t perfect. But I’d be married to the wrong man, living a life I didn’t want, if it wasn’t for him. In a really fucked up way he saved me. I was headed down the wrong path, one I knew was wrong for me, but didn’t have the strength to end it. Surviving him gave me that strength.

Maybe it’s Stockholm syndrome, but I will always have a soft spot for Mr. X and for whatever reason he’ll probably always have an interest in me. I’m not sure what his reasons are, I stopped trying to figure out his motives years ago. But it’s almost like he has feeling, I suspect it’s a software glitch.

I hope this answered some of your questions, and hopefully didn’t raise too many more. My simple summation is, he’s a friend, that shouldn’t be a friend, that is a friend.

Anyways, I am going to go, I have a sexy man I have to message back, look forward to those details in my next post. But, before I go I have this question for you, do you have any friends, that shouldn’t be friends, that are friends? Let me know your stories in the comment box below. And as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday, 21 October 2016

Single

“If Mr. X can find someone you shouldn’t have any problems.” That might be my favourite line I’ve heard all year.

I want to straighten something out with the universe; I am not single because I cannot find anyone. I am single because I rather be alone, I happen to enjoy my own company and other people are kind of assholes. It seems like a no brainer to me.

I’m aware that sounds horrible but, I spend a minimum of 48 hours a week dealing with whiny cry baby men at work, and rightly or wrongly just the thought of having to deal with one at home makes me want to take up serial killing.

“You’ll change your tone when you meet the right man”, I hear you and maybe your right, but I have no will to try and locate this magic man, or even hearing him out if he happens upon me. I think at this point he’d have to tase me and tie me to a chair for me to take notice.

Maybe this is a sign I need a new job, or maybe that Mr. X did change me or maybe I’m just grumpy and getting old, who knows. But right now I’m choosing to embrace my grumpy singledom.

Anyways, you gorgeous people, I am going to go and enjoy the rest of the day before I go back to work tomorrow, but before I do I have this question for you; why is being single looked down on? Let me know your thoughts in the comment box below. And as always, stay and play safe. 

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday, 14 October 2016

Anonymity

During a recent trip to Manchester to visit a work friend, I got quizzed on why I wouldn’t give out my URL. I was asked why if I want my blog to get hits and grow, why I don’t tell everyone. Since I get this type of question a fair bit, I thought I’d address it here.

The oversimplified answer is; I protect my URL for an easy life. I use to, many moons ago, share it freely and it resulted in more drama than one person should have to deal with. So when I moved my blog here, I decided I needed to protect myself from that. It hasn’t worked completely; I’ve been threatened with a few lawsuits, but that’s all the more reason to limit the possible damage. I’m not shy about what I do, I just need a little bit of a wall.

The less simple answer is; my blog isn’t about me…. Let me try and explain without sounding like a crazy(er) person. When you watch a vlog your opinion is swayed before anything is even said. We’re all shallow to some level. By keeping my anonymity, this place becomes about my stories, experiences and opinions and not about me per se. It allows us to connect on the experiences and opinions rather than on who we are.

I hope that makes sense and if not I’ll blame it on still being a little rusty and whole lot crazy. Before I go I’m going to leave you with this question; what question do you always get from your friends? Let me know in the comment box below. And as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch
xoxo

Monday, 10 October 2016

Happy Thanksgiving

I just what to take a moment to wish you all a very Happy Thanksgiving, from my family to yours. I Hope you a wonderful day surrounded by family and friends






Love you all,

The Honest Bitch 

Friday, 7 October 2016

Emotionally Out of Whack

I’ve often said I blog to keep myself sane, and I think the past few months may have proven that fact. Admittedly, my back has been playing up which hasn’t made things any easier, but even bearing that in mind, I’ve been incredibly snappy and bitchy and oh so close to murderous lately.

I was so dumb, I didn’t even put two and two together until I started contemplating quitting my blog. I was lying in bed thinking about all the reason I blog and what I enjoy about it and if there’s been about I’ve been missing and it just slapped me in the face.

I have been missing this release, and without having this safe place to conduct these somewhat controlled releases I’ve just been snapping and going at people with little provocation.

I may be a self-proclaimed bitch, but that isn’t me. I tend to have decent self-control and an impressive ability to bite my tongue, a skill I mastered thanks to my many years of customer service work. Snapping like I have been doing, has been a little scary. It’s felt like it’s only a matter of time before I do something I may regret.

I’m hoping my return to blogging will help balance things out and hopefully make me a little more tolerable. Because I’m starting to piss even myself off. Which is almost impressive when you think about it.

Anyways, you sexy beasts, I am going to go and grab a shower and try and get through the day without hitting anyone, but before I do I will leave you with this question. What do you do to keep you your emotions in whack? Let me know in the comment box below. And as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch
xoxo 

Saturday, 1 October 2016

Happy October Strangers

Happy October! I guess I should start by addressing the naked ghost in the room, where have I been for the past 5 months?

And I wish I had a more exciting answer for you’ll. I’ve just been an uninspired, lazy blogger, and rather than just push through I haven’t been writing. And that hasn’t been limited to my blog. I haven’t done any stories, or script work. I haven’t even been making the effort to go to improv. I’ve just been checked out.

So why am I back? Good question. I have recently had a lot of my blogger friends call it quits and it made me question my own blog mortality. And, after a lot of thoughtI’m not ready to die.

Coming to the above conclusion, I also came to the realization that if I'm not ready for the blog to die, I better write or it’s as good as gone anyways.  So here I am, back and rusty as hell.

I’m jumping right back into my Friday schedule, I know today is Saturday, but my weird brain just liked the sound of the starting on the 1st rather than the 30th better. Just like when I was actually writing before, I will be pre-writing most my post just to make sure you guys have content on the Friday.

I just want to thank you guys in advance for bearing with me while I try and shake off the rust. And thank you for still being here, I’m can honestly say I don’t think I would be if I was a reader but, that’s why you guys are awesome. Thank you guys, and as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday, 1 April 2016

It's April... When Did That Happen

So apparently April is a thing, I’m not quite sure when it happened…. But it did and I don’t like it. I’m not where I wanted to be by April, I had a plan and evidence that plan went out the window.
I wanted to have my shit together by now, I wanted to have my blog in order, my work / personal life balanced out. That hasn’t really happened. I’m 29 in just over a month, at some point I have to get my shit together and be an adult… Even if I don’t want to.

29 is a scary age to me, that’s when I always thought I’d settle down, get married, have kids and that’s pretty much not happening now. Married, mortgage, kids…. That’s the plan and that’s not a year or two plan. Also for that plan to even work, I’d have to find a guy I can stand and right now, everyone gets on my nerves. I’s just not a people person these days.

Maybe I’m going to have to have a long look at my plan because clearly at the minute it’s not working.

Anyways, I’m going to go and get some sleep, I’m back at work tomorrow and if the last two weeks are anything to go by… it’s going to be a long week. But before I go I have this question for you, what is your scary grown up, have your shit together age? Let me know in the comment box below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo