I'm currently tangled in my feelings. I'm not sure which
feeling belongs to which emotion or what root cause. I'm hoping by coming back
to my blog. I'll be able to sit and write and work through some of the almost trauma of the last few years.
Not going to lie, I'm not going to sugar-coat it the last few years,
last decade has sucked. I've worked hard to fight through, I've worked hard to
get here. I'm still here, I’m still fighting, I’m still going. But fuck…. I’m
tired. That little bitch lied when she said the sun will come out tomorrow. I'm
starting to question if there even is a sun.
We all know October is hard for me, this year is no different.
I'm trying. I really am. But right now, as I sit here, crying at my keyboard. I'm
struggling to find the fight. Don't get me wrong, I know good things are
coming. I know the tide is turning. But getting there is. This is a lot of
work. I'd like, I said. I'm tired.
I’ll go into details on everything that’s happened recently
in the next few posts. I don’t want to
completely fall apart on you all at once. I just wanted to say hi, and let you know,
I plan to make a return. Even if I am older and none the wiser evidently.
Love
The Honest Bitch