I’ve recently developed
a strong dislike for the weekends and it’s all CM’s fault. He works Monday to Friday,
so during that time we’re pretty much free to communicate as we like. Yes, he
has work to do but we still text all day and normally even manage a Skype call
or two.
Then the weekend
rolls around and everything changes. I get next to no text messages during the
day; I generally get a message from him about 4 or 5 asking how my day is
going. I’ll send a reply back and won’t hear anything for an hour or two. The messages
are typically slow going and tend to be short and abrupt. Which I find unappealing
to say the least.
Please don’t get me wrong I understand why it’s
that way, he has “real life” to deal with and by that I mean his “blah-blah-blah”
(yeah, that’s the technical term for it now) but I don’t have to like it.
During a conversation
the other day I commented to CM that he can look forward to finishing work all
he wants but I happen to like it better when he’s there. He of course asked why
and I explained that when he’s not there he’s a bit of an ass (that’s harsh
wording on my part, he’s not an ass but that’s the word I used.) And he sent me this message explaining why.
“You have to remember
I usually have someone sitting directly next to me when I’m at home. I know the
messages seem short and I really don’t want them to be but it seems like that’s
the way they come across x x x x x”
Call me a bitch
(because that’s my name) but that’s not the mental image I want of the person I’m
having a pseudo affair with. I want to picture them on opposite sides of the
room screaming, about to kill each other.....And yes I am aware that makes me a
horrible person.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m
under no disillusions, he’s not going to leave his.....blah-blah-blah and I
wouldn’t expect him to. I don’t foresee this ending “happily ever after” but I
would like to enjoy the ride while it lasts.
That brings me to the
question of the blog; is it really that bad to just enjoy the ride while it
lasts? Let me know your thoughts in the comment box below. And as always my
dears stay and play safe.
Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxoxo