Unavailable Men

When I sit, and think about my problems when it comes to dating it all boils down to one main issue; unavailable men.

Mr. X is the prime example, he’s married now. No matter what there is or was or what feeling may be there. He is married.

There's a guy at work that keeps hinting he’s unhappy in his relationship and wants to take me out, but the bottom line being he’s in a relationship. There’s no point in entertaining him…. He’s unavailable.

This seems to be a trend lately and it really needs to stop, I am 30 next year, and it’s about fucking time I go at least got one aspect of my life together.  I’m not saying I need to find love, I just want the options the universe presents to be actual options. I don’t think that’s too much to ask really.

Anyways, I’m back at work tonight for my last 4 before Christmas and I think I am going to go and get dressed and put some fuel in my car to save running around tonight. But before I go I have this question for you, what aspect of your life do you wish you could get your shit together in? Let me know in the comment box below and as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 

xoxo

Repeating History

Let me start this post by fully acknowledging I’m an idiot who clearly hasn’t learned from the past. Do you remember a post I did in May 2015 called Skulls are Softer than Poles? In that post I explained that I lost my temper at work kicked a post, broke my toe. You know because I’m an adult.

Last week at work after dealing with a menopausal bitch driver and a co-worker who has no understanding of time, I lost my temper. I didn’t kick a pole this time, apparently, I learned something. However, I did kick a large yellow grit container resulting in the same thing… I broke my toe… Once again because clearly, I’m an adult.

Last time I forgot how to be an adult and melted down like Britany Spears 2007. I followed up by quitting my job. I decided no job was worth being so upset over. This time, I’m not sure what my plan is. My stress level was not helped by the fact I was forced into a situation I didn’t want to be in. Things that night were not the norm. That said, I am not happy where I am. 

Anyways, I won’t be making any life decisions tonight and it is time for some more pain killers and to get some sleep, because broken toe or not, I’m back in hell tomorrow. But before I go, I do have this question for you; What do you do to stay calm? Let me know in the comments below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 

xoxo

Work Review

I’m a fairly nocturnal person, hence why night shifts have never bothered me. Yet for some reason on my first shift in my body refused to sleep and I’m awake before the damn birds. Maybe this lack of sleep is why my boss thinks I’m “aggressive”. Personally, I think my aggressiveness is triggered idiots, but I’m sure others won’t see it that way.

My Christmas review is coming up, hence why all this crap is running around my mind. Considering last year, I put my hand through a wall after my review, I’m hoping this one goes slightly better.  

Seeing as I haven’t actually seen my boss since my July review, where he called me “aggressive”, I can’t see this going well. Whatever he bases it on will be second hand rhetoric and that can’t be good for me, since being a “people person” isn’t a skill I excel in these days.

Anyways, wish me luck as I face another week of peak season in transport. But before I go, I have this question for you; what do you do to stay calm and non-aggressive at work? Let me know in the comment box below. And as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 

xoxo

2016

I can’t believe it’s December already. I was lying in bed, unable to sleep thinking about the end of the year and what I’ve achieved in 2016.

And the answer to the above question is not a fucking lot.

Work wise I’m probably a step backwards. I haven’t been the most people pleasing person this year and that’s not ideal for job progression.  My boss likes kiss asses and that's just not me.

Blog wise; I ended up taking a lot of time off and am not anywhere near where I want to be with it.

Personal life remains pretty unchanged.

My love life is a distant memory and is looking unlikely to change anytime soon.

2016 hasn’t been the most productive year. It’s not been bad by any means, it’s just… been.

Anyways, that’s just what’s floating around my mind in the middle of the night. I think I am going to go and try and get some sleep. But before I go, I have this questions for you; how has 2016 been for you? Let me know in the comment box below and as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 

xoxo

12 Wasted, but Wonderful Days

Today is my last day of 12 wonderful, magical days off work and I’m pleased to say I’ve done not a damn thing during that time. Hell, I think I’ve only been out of my pajamas once. And as unproductive as it’s been, it’s felt fantastic.

My real-life job has been so stressful lately, I thought about taking my old job back.  I think my brain and body needed to veg. It needed to reboot and restart. And mindless tasks like online shopping, playing computer games and binge watching House is just what I needed to feel less like I’m one moaning driver away from being arrested for attempted murder.

Despite wasting 12 days, I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. That said, it is Black Friday and I have some major online shopping to do before I return to the grind tomorrow night. But before I go I have this question for you; what has been your most relaxing holiday? Let me know in the comment box below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch  

xoxo

All Caught Up

It appears my blog has caught up with reality, due in large part to me spending the past 3 weeks suffering with that I can only assume at this point was the plague.

It feels weird knowing when I’m done writing and editing this post there will be no delay. I got kind of use to it. I know Mr. X would send me a message questioning something I wrote, most of the time I wouldn’t have a clue what he was on about. I’d have to go back and re-read my post…… and still not reply….. I was super sick.

I guess I should bring you up speed; Martin is dead, he’s been dead for well over a month. I decided I was too old to play games and frankly got bored.

I haven’t spoken to Mr. X, like I said I was sick and frankly, I’m still not 100%. I’m still trying to rest up, hence why this post is going to be short.

I’m currently on holiday from work, which is nice because I’m not in love with my job at the moment.  Something I’m planning on addressing while I’m off.

Anyways, I’m going to go and get some more sleep. Sorry, this is a bit of a throwaway post, but thanks to the bug I had, if my doctor is going to be believed, I’m going to worn down for a few weeks. Before I go, I have this question for you; what is your favorite way to recover from an illness? Let me know in the comment box below. And as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 

xox

Undecided

I’m having issue I don’t normally have, I can’t seem to make a solid judgment on Martin. Normally I know pretty quickly whether a guy is worth my time or a complete waste of space, but not this time. For whatever reason, when it comes to him, my mind keeps changing.

I was ready to write him off less than 6 days after I wrote my last post, I had decided he was a waste of time. Then my mind was swayed and I decided to let things play on. Then 2 days ago I had decided enough was enough and I was done. Then last night I swayed back to the play on position. 

I’m not really sure what the issue is; he hadn’t done anything major to be written off, I just get that time waster vibe and I’m getting a little old for time wasters. That said, he hasn’t done anything major to lead me to believe there’s anything there either.

He’s kind of just…. There. And, if I wanted just a giant blob of a man that there was no future with, I have Mr. X. I don’t need another romantic nothing, the role is already cast. Romantic love interested on the other hand…. Open casting call going on. However, the casting director is a major bitch and really hard to please.

It’s weird, my head isn’t even all over the place like I’d normally expect. it’s as if I’m deciding to read junk mail first or just throw it away unopened. Maybe, just maybe, I am not that into him. That said…. He is hot, really, really hot.

Anyways, I am going to go and grab a shower and then hopefully finish up a few more posts. We’re reaching peak season at work and if I got a head now, I’ll have no hope come December. But before I go, I had this question for you, is there anything wrong with not being decided on a relationship? Let me know your thoughts in the comment box below and as always, stay and play, safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 

xoxo