The Reoccurring Crush

The reoccurring crush refers to someone whom you had a crush on, managed to convince yourself that they’re bad news and happily moved on from. Then out of thin air you start to think about that person again. It could be months or even years later. I’m sure I’m not the only person that has this problem and when you have crush relapse you have to go through the process of convincing yourself this person is an idiot all over again.

Once again this is caused by your idiot heart trying to an opinion about something. Your heart is almost always wrong so why the hell something that’s always wrong thinks it has the right to chime in is completely beyond me.

I find the whole thing rather tiresome. You spend a week listing the negative things about the person and by the end of it you come to the same conclusion you did month before. It’s a complete waste of time. So if you’re listening heart...Shut up! You don’t know what you’re talking about.

I may come across a little short tempered about this matter, and I am. I have been suffering a reoccurring crush on the same person for years. I know within a week my brain will come back off vacation and bitch slap me into remembering he’s an asshole. So this whole process of him invading my mind is frustrating and pointless.

Anyways that my rant over. I actually feel a lot better for it. You guys always make me feel better. So let me ask you....Do you suffer from a reoccurring crush?

Have a lovely day guys, and as always...Stay safe.

Love

The Honest Bitch

xoxoxoxoxo

P.S I hope your hangovers aren't to bad. Happy New Year

Not moving my blog - More Details

Hey Dolls,

I think you guys would like some details on what lead to my last short update the other night. You can’t really call that a blog.

Here it goes I was getting ready to watch the HNIC and one of my many ghosts popped up. The conversation started off ok, if not a little forward on his part. Then all out of nowhere he tells me him and a group of people I haven’t seen in years have been reading my blog.

Part of my blogs charm is I can say whatever, no one knows who I am, and I’m not answerable to anyone. So I was very worried at first that people I know reading it would change things. However, after thinking about it long and hard, I realized that they’re people who I haven’t spoken to in years, why does it matter. They already have their opinions of me and seeing as we don’t they’re not good ones. And while they may hate me they’re doing me favour and helping me get more and more views.

The drama the other night wasn’t just about that. It turns out the ghost had a problem with some of the stuff I had said about him. I’m sorry his feeling got hurt but I’m not sorry for how I felt. There are two sides to every story and this blog is where I get to tell my story and how I feel. Tough cookie if you don’t like it.

Like I said in my short update, I’m very thankful for Mr. X being the voice of reason. He’s not normally so human but he actually understands the blogging world and how much time goes into not just the writing but the get readers. He may be a total jerk but I wouldn’t change him the world.

Anyways my dolls, I’m heading off. Have a great day.

Love Always

The Honest Bitch

xxxxxxxxxxxx

Thinking about love

Hey Guys,

I hope everyone is alright. I’m currently snuggled up in bed thinking about love. Is anyone else shocked? I’m well aware that when people talk about me love isn't something that would even cross their mind. I’m well known for going through men on almost a daily bases. I’m not the falling in love type.

Saying all that I did fall in love once upon a time and the hard part for me is I haven’t be able to morn that relationship because it didn’t end on bad terms. We both love each other but sadly we had to end things because of his work. I always believed that if its meat to be he’d come back to me but it’s been a long while and now I’m having to realize I’m really alone.

I don’t really believe in happily ever after, I kind of figure at some point in your life you decide why the hell not and just settle for whatever you have at the time. You live in the same house for years wondering what the hell went wrong, and then you die. That’s the story Disney won’t tell you.

Before you ask I’m not sad or feeling upset, I’m just someone who believes that if you aim to high you can never truly be happy. I’m also someone who has for many years said she plans to a bingo spinster and possibly owning a few cats.

Anyways dolls I’m going to go sleep now.

Love you all and please stay safe

Queen Bee xxx