
I was receiving
trigger point injections from a pain management centre in attempt to control my
pain levels. They weren't a 100 percent successful but they did have positive
effects. Sadly the NHS decided to close the centre that was handling my
treatment. So I’m kind of in limbo right now. I should have had an injection almost
4 months ago and I’ve heard nothing. Everyone was meant to be referred to a new
specialist or back to their GPs. My GP knows nothing and as of yet no new
doctor.
This whole mess has me
pretty pissed off, and not for the reasons you may think. I’m happy to have
someone new come in with fresh eyes. I’m pissed that nobody seems to know who
has my medical records or where they even are.
I understand finding
the cause will take time, I accept that. But I don’t accept that treating the
pain should take this long. I’m not asking for them to pull a rabbit out of their ass. All I’m asking is for them to control my pain levels. It’s not rocket
science.
The pain itself has an
unwanted side effect, anger.
I’ll be the first to
admit my attitude when my back is bad, sucks. I get snappy, crabby and just
plain mean. And I have no control over it.
The brain can’t
flitter what a person is saying when it’s too busy scream “THAT HURTS!”
I have no patience to
deal with anyone or thing when it’s at its worse. I know this so I’ll pull away
from people. You won’t see me on any chat thing or around people. I just stay
away from everyone. It makes things easier. A little lonely at times but it’s
better that way. Trust me.

I had the decision
taken away from me last week. My moods were horrible because of the amount of
pain I was in so I was forced to go the doctors. I had no say what so ever in
that decision.
After talking things
over with him and him seeing how bad I really was. He decided to refer me back
to the spinal specialist (because that worked out so well the first time) and
try me on some different medications. He added a muscle relaxant to my long
list of pills and stronger painkillers.
Here’s a tip never
Google what your doctor gives you. My pain killers.....also given to heroin
addicts. That’s something everyone wants to read about their new medication.
Admittedly the new
pills do seem to be helping a lot but still not big on having something in
common with a heroin addict. I also don’t love the warning to athletes on the
box saying “these pills may cause you to fail anti-doping tests”. Damn it,
there go my Olympic dreams. (Sex and bitching are Olympic sports right?)

The first tip he gave
me was to use damp heat. The easiest way to do that is to put a wheat bottle in
the microwave with a glass of water. Sounds simple but it’s very effective.

Before you ask no,
I’m not being paid to say that.
Anyways my dears
that’s all from me. Hope you are all well and have a great night. As always stay safe.
Love,
Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxo
xoxo