Mr. X’s Wife
is having a baby.
I received this
news a few hours ago as I’m writing this, Saturday in your world. And I’m most surprised
how ingrained blogging is in me. My focus has turned very quickly from the
effect it was having on me, to my blog.
Let me start
by saying, I’m not even going to try and pretend I took the news well. I lost
it. I started crying, uncontrollability. I throw up, then slid down the door and
just trembled. And once I could see my phone again through the tears, I lost my
temper with Mr. X. (I’ll explain that more in a different blog) Despite it all,
I feel I restrained myself well. It could have been worse, I definitely had
things I could have said and didn’t.
Mainly
because my brain switched to my blog. I had posts planned this week; one of you
asked the interested question; would the person I am now, date gre at post, I can’t write that now. Some of you
asked if Mr. X would do another guest post, another great idea. Although I’m
not sure I could handle that now. I had all these things planned and it's fucked, he fucked it.
I’ve been
blogging over half my life, so I guess it shouldn’t be surprising my brain
heads there. I’ve often said I blog to stay sane. And I’m fighting to stay sane
at the moment. My brain is frazzled, I’m can’t think straight. I’m just holding
on to what pieces I can, hoping I don’t fall completely apart.
I am going
to go and get some sleep. And hopefully when I wake up I’ll have a better
outlook on things. And with a little like this shaking will have stopped because it’s
driving me crazy. I should really leave you with a question, but I have too
many too
Anyways, as
always, stay and play safe.
Love,
The Honest
Bitch
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