Thursday 11 April 2013

Brain Holding Me Hostage

I’ve been up all night thinking; not willingly. My brain is kind of holding me hostage. I’ve let go of a lot of things recently and some people, but all this letting go and moving on has left me in a strange place, I’m left with an overwhelming “what now” feeling.

In 6 weeks I’ll be 26 years old, and I’m definitely not where I thought I’d be at this age and now where I thought I’d be isn’t even where I want to be.

Hell.....I don’t know where I want to be.

Actually I do know where I want to be...asleep but my brain is unwilling to cooperate on that one.

It’s too busy thinking up questions that are impossible to answer and probably shouldn’t be answered. There is a saying that you should never try to answer life’s questions because when you find the answer life changes.

And I agree with that....things that matter today, probably won’t tomorrow. I just wish I could sleep to get to tomorrow.

So what do you do when your brain holds you hostages and plays keep away with dream land? Let me know in the comment box below and as always stay and sleep safe.


The Sleepy Bitch 


  1. Your brain won't shut up but it is brilliant. What you wrote is so true. My life is not where I thought it would be at 25, but what I thought I wanted is not exactly what I want anymore, and oh Gosh is it complicated to figure out stuff when you feel like you are still changing so much.
    Now you read my blog enough to know that I don't have a miracle solution to making my brain shut up. Sometimes I run at weird hours 'cause it is my only escape. But aside from that, all those stupid tricks - tea, bath etc just don't help. I just try writing so I feel like my time is not completely wasted being up all night, and if I am not inspired, I come to your blog, and I read :)

    1. Telltale sign I've had no sleep I laughed when I read "Gosh" you're not helping the prim and proper imagine I'm starting to form of you lol

      I'm pretty sure blogs like this, is how I earned the title of the most sane crazy person lol My brain has lost it minds yet by so act of "Gosh" logic pops out :-P

      I do the same with your blog, if I get stuck or bored of proof reading I go an invade your blog with really long replies

    2. "Gosh" I hope you are bored sometime soon LOL

    3. lol I have been on your site, just didnt want to reply when I haven't had much sleep, As a general rule I only like to sound like an idiot on my own site :-)

  2. What I do when I can't sleep? Browse pinterest, which is addictive as hell by the way. And about your thoughts of not being where you thought you'd be at 26, I can totally relate. I felt that at 25, 26 and 27. Now at 28 approaching 29 in a few months, I don't think you ever really know what you're supposed to be. One thing you can always do though is look back and acknowledge what you've learned, which is probably a hell of a lot and will make you wiser going into your next year.

    1. Ohhh I know, pinterest has stole many hours from me and is responsible for me eating a lot of gross tasting stuff that had such a nice looking picture lol

      That's a good point, I'm not where I thought I'd be but I've learned a lot more then I would have otherwise. You're a smart cookie (which is a saying I've never understood) :-)