Forgetting the fact,
the whole Steve thing is morally reprehensible. It has proven to be a good
learning opportunity and even seems to have facilitated some self-growth.
This was never
more evident to me, then the other night at work. Both Steve and Mr. Block were
messaging me at the same time and both conversations were eerily similar but
handle in two very different manners.
I had sent both
a picture of me at my desk, the image was cleavage heavy, however, I am
cleavage heavy so unless I’m in a turtle neck that’s always an issue. Steve’s
response was to ask me to remove the filter because “I don’t need it”. While,
Mr. Block’s response was to ask me to get my tits fully out. It’s safe to say
only one of them received any further images.
Now I am aware
both of these gentlemen were after the same thing. Neither of them had pure intentions.
Their motivation was more pictures to perv at. But, the old adage is true, it’s
not what you say, it’s how you say it. And Steve is masterful at this.
Steve is basically
a horny genius and he really should consider writing a book on his skills. He
has mastered the technique of building you up to get the end result he wants.
At this point, I can’t tell if this is something he does consciously or subconsciously
and to be honest, I don’t want to know.
I’ve gone substantially further with him, digitally speaking, than with any other guys and the reason
is simple. He builds me up, he makes me feel good, sexy, cute, he gives and as
a result I want to give back. I want to make him feel that same way. Unlike a
lot of other guys, who are all about them, who want to know what you’re going
to do to them; he’s all about what he’s going to do for you. It’s a nice change.
Motivation
aside; the technique is flawless, and the end result is a win, win. He gets off
and my confidence is back, and I feel better in myself.
All that said,
he is also a genuinely nice guy, which certainly does help the charm factor. He
has quickly become one of my favourite humans to talk to at work. It has
nothing to do with the flirting, although that is a nice touch, but he is a calm
influence and a good voice of reason in a very stressful environment.
Just recently,
I was having an issue at work and he the one I turned to not the work BFF. He
was so sweet and went out of his way to make sure I was ok, and he offered some
incredibly useful advice. I felt so looked after and in such safe hands, I haven’t felt the need to
mention it to the work BFF at all.
The issue I
have now is when I compare the likes of Mr. Block to Steve (not apples to apple,
I know) it doesn’t balance out. Knowing how I feel with Steve, I’m left
wondering why Mr. Block’s approach is acceptable. Why should I consider settling for less? I shouldn’t be left questioning things after a conversion with a guy. I
shouldn’t be left questioning myself. I am something special, if not to him, to
someone. And if he doesn’t see that or
doesn’t make me feel that way, fuck him. Nobody and I mean nobody, should
settle for less than a Steve.
Anyways, I am
going to go and enjoy the time rest of the time I have off. This post took way longer to write than it should have. But, for I go I have this question for you; What makes you
feel special? Let me know your thoughts in the comments below. And as always, stay
and play safe.
Love,
The Honest
Bitch
xoxo
I'm pleased Steve seems to be repairing what Mr X broke. Although for your sake I wish he wasn't so Mr. X in the relationship status situation. Be careful
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