I’ve been on my shift pattern for over 6 years, and after
the past couple of years, and more importantly, after the past 7 months I need
that routine. It has remained my one sense of normality, the one consistent,
and you sure can hell bet I am going to fight to keep that. I need that routine,
it’s a large part of my coping mechanism. And it sucks, I don’t want to and
shouldn’t have to explain that I am struggling. I am doing what I need to
remain functioning. I am not okay, and I am painfully aware I still haven’t
processed everything. But I have to keep moving, healing will come, but until it
does, I have to protect my mental wellbeing.
That said, this sucks. I worked my ass off to get any sense
of recognition, to get an opportunity. Opportunities
on nights are unheard of. And I have to pass it up. I am damn good at my job,
and nobody knows everything I do, that’s how good I am. I am mad. This is so
stupid. Here, have a promotion, but you have to completely swap on to the other
set of 4. Why? This just sucks.
Anyways, I am off to get some sleep and try to chill out. As
always, stay and play safe guys.
Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxo
