I’ve learned
throughout the years that if I ignore stress it will manifest itself in physical
symptoms. Most commonly for me is a sharp pain in my left shoulder. While it sucks;
I can cope with that fairly well. I handle it better than real stress anyways.
That said, it appears my body has gotten wise and has upped its game.
The pain in
my shoulder, morphed into tension across basically every muscle in my body. I
feel like I may snap in half at any moment, my body has no flexibility. When
that didn’t cause me to deal with things it moved to screwing with my sleep. I’ve
developed a death gripe in my sleep. If I am lucky, I grab onto blankets or pillows
and not let go. If I am lucky, I grab onto myself, which results in bruise of
whatever body part I grabbed, thigh, arm, wrist.
Now, that it
appears we’ve moved on to vibrating. Which it’s new and I’m already bored of. Like,
come on body can you just not let me be? This one is weird. It’s like I’m shaking,
but faster. Apparently, a lot of people say it feels like an electric
toothbrush. I can really put it into words other than to say it I’ve over it.
I don’t know
what I am meant to do to deal with the stress, to relieve the issues. My mom is
dying, it’s stressful. The end of that is her dead and that’s way more stressful.
Seems like I can’t fucking win this one.
Anyways, I
am going to go and do something to take my mind off things. As always stay and
play safe.
Love,
The Honest
Bitch
xoxo
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