He was a total sweetheart, however a little forward. However,
made me feel comfortable. It was a good evening for sure. Just haven’t got my thoughts
together yet.
Sorry things post is such nothing post. I am just not
with it right now. As always stay and play safe.
Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxo
We have rescheduled, kind of. We had already rescheduled
once and that fell through also, so I am not holding my breath on this new date.
This one is weird. I am going to go around his after his daughter leaves. So, I’ll
be going over at like 9pm. This feels a little seedy, but I want this date out
of the way, so I am down.
We’ve been talking since February, and I need to know if this
is something or not. I need to thank you next already or move this show along. I
am getting impatient in my old age. I hate that this date feels high pressure,
but I am sure it’ll be ok. I just need to know.
Anyways, I need to go and have a nap. This holiday life is hard
work. Let me know your thoughts in the comments below. And as always stay and
play safe.
Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxo
It’s gotten so bad, that when the voice in my head is muted,
my body isn’t. I constantly feel like I am 30 seconds away from a panic attack. I’d like to say
I don’t understand what is happening, but I have a fair idea, it’s more that I
don’t want to deal with it and clearly, my brain and body aren’t accepting “no”
as an answer.
This is the first time I’ve been off work in 6 months, and
we all know what happened last time I was on holiday from work. I didn’t think
it would affect me this much, but clearly, I was wrong. I know I haven’t worked
through everything yet. Hell, I'm doubtful I have actually allowed myself to work
through any of it. But you need to keep moving right? My mom wouldn’t want me
dwelling on things, she’d want me out there kicking ass.
I need to stop this here, my eyes are leaking, and my nose
is joying in, it is far too early to ugly cry. As always, let me know your
thoughts in the comments below, and stay and play safe.
Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxo
I am on holiday after my next set of 4, so I expect we will
sort something then. Lockdown restrictions also ease so that should make things
a lot easier. Although the thought of us meeting has my tummy in knots.
He doesn’t help matters either, rather than trying to be
comforting or put my mind at ease he’s reaction to me being nervous has been “suck
it up”. Just repeating to me that it’ll be ok. Like, dude, I know it will be
ok, but at least try to help matters when I am not feeling my best. But I guess
we will see what happens.
Anyways, I am off to get some rest before I head back to
work tomorrow. Let me know your thoughts in the comments below. And as always,
stay and play safe.
Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxo
Let’s start with the divorce, he got served the papers the
other day and he didn’t take it well. Like I get that it’s the end of something,
you were together 17 years and it sucks. But if you’re doing to take it that poorly.
Maybe don’t date yet. I took time off after Mr. X and it was the smartest thing
I ever did. There is no harm or shame in taking time off to regroup.
The next issue is the child. I have always been against
dating someone with a child. I think it would be exceedingly difficult to not have
that time being the other person's everything. Not having that foundation, seems
like being set up for failure. I am not saying it’s impossible but difficult.
And I am too fucking old to want to deal with outside factors.
Like Lawyer Dude doesn’t have me by my name in his phone because
of his daughter, he doesn’t want to explain things. Which is cool, I don’t want
to be explained. However, I don’t like the fact I need to be hidden.
Speaking of things I dislike, he lied about his age. he's actually 40, not 39. Which isn't a deal-breaker, but why lie?
But, like I said, he’s a sweetheart, really caring, funny.
Has a good respectable job. For the most part, he has his shit together. But
holy red flags Batman.
I don’t know what to do. I am just letting it ride for now
and we will see what happens.
Anyways, I am off to do all those day off things. Let me
know your thoughts in the comments below. As always stay and play safe.
Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxo
This all comes as Lawyer Dude seems to be fizzling out. He is
starting to take effort and I am not ok with that. I want things to flow and
feel natural and right now, it doesn’t feel that way at all. And yes, there are
a million reasons why, but when I compare it to Hugh, why am I dealing with the
million reasons why?
This dude is ruining my dating life. He set a standard without
trying and now I am struggling to find anyone who measures up to his standard.
Who knew meeting a good guy would cause me all these problems?
Anyways, I am off to tidy up and work on finding a new human
to keep me company. Let me know your thoughts in the comments below. And as
always stay and play safe.
Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxo
As I am guessing you have worked out, he is a lawyer, and I
will be calling him Lawyer Dude in the blog because…. I am struggling to remember
names. He is 39 from Manchester and that’s where the positives stop. Don’t get
me wrong, he is lovely and sweet and cute, but not my normal style if you will.
He also starts with 2 massive strikes against him. He is divorced and has a
child. I am not okay with either of those facts.
Lawyer Dude is a smart decision, he has his shit together.
Good job, own place. It’s smart. The cost being an ex-wife and a child. Can I overlook
this? I honestly don’t know. And I have decided not to worry about it until we meet in person and see how we click. At that point, I either like him enough to overlook
the normal deal-breakers, or I won’t.
This isn’t ideal, at all, but I am in a place where my brain
is in a fuck it zone. And smart decisions are better than butterflies. I tried
butterflies…. It didn’t work out well.
Anyways, I am off to have a nap. Let me know your thoughts
in the comments before. As always, you lovely people, stay and play safe.
Love,
The Honest Bitch
