Friday 18 March 2016

Math Is Against Me

I was talking with one of my drivers about how I always seem to be sick on my days off. I explained to him it’s the price you tend to pay when you work 4 on, 4 off, and when you think about it, it kind of makes sense.

When you work 4 on, 4 off, you don’t tend to allow yourself to get fully better. The average cold or flu lasts 7-10 days.  If we start getting sick on our 3rd or 4th shift in, it’s normally at its worst by our 1st or 2nd day off. 2 or 3 days later, as you do with the flu, you feel better. And that puts you right at the start of your work week. The problem being, you’re not better, you’re just better than you were.  And your mind will tell you, you’ve been in bed for 4 days, you're better and to go to work! The math, on the other hand, will tell you it’s only been 5 or 6 days since you got ill, despite what you think, you’re not better.

But, because nobody ever listens to math; so you go to work, and due to another mathematical equation that is working against, 4 days later, when your work week is done, you’re still sick, probably sicker than you were 4 days ago and the cycle continues.

There is another math equation that works against you and is probably the reason you got sick in the first place and the reason your recovery will take longer than it should; sleep, or lack thereof. When you’re sick, you need rest to recover and lots of it, and when you work 12 hour shifts you don’t get it. And it’s easy to see why.

It takes me 1.5 to get to work, 1 hour to get home. I give myself 2 hours to get ready and eat before work, right there only leaves me 7.5 hours. I have to come in from work, take off my makeup, actually fall asleep. Even if that only took an hour….and trust me, it’s always longer, that only leaves a possible 6.5 hours of sleep a night. And that’s banking on me getting out of work bang on 6am…. Which isn’t a thing that happens. So I’m lucky if I get 5 and half maybe 6 hours of sleep a night. Remembering 8 hours is what we’re meant to be aiming for. By the end of my working week I have a sleep debt of 8+ hours, or a full night’s sleep. Which is why like most 4 on, 4 off night shift workers I rarely see my first day off.

Like I said, math is against me, which is a shame, because it was always my favorite subject in school and now it’s trying to kill me. Anyways, I am going to go and sleep because…. Math. But before I do I have this question for you; what do you feel like is working against you? Let me know in the comment box below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch
xoxo 

Friday 11 March 2016

Minor Fail

Just for the sake of honesty, which is kind of the name of the game here, I am backdating this post and my next one mainly for accountability. 1 post a week isn’t that much and the fact I failed to do that is ridiculous.

Yes, I have been sick, but that should only account for one week, the other was down to pure laziness, I knew what I had to do but for whatever reason, I just didn’t.  So now that I’m feeling…. Not a whole lot better I’m going try and sort this stuff out and refocus on what’s important.

2016 is meant to be the year of focusing on my career and it’s sad to think by March, I’m already struggling.

Anyways, I’m keeping this post nice a short, and just admitting I’m a failure, but it’s not about how many times you fail or fall behind schedule is it? It’s about how you pick yourself up and carry on… on so the overly positive people say…. I’m still working on the resolution too.

As always you lovely people, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday 4 March 2016

50 Questions You've Never Been Asked Tag


I don’t tend to do “tag posts” very often, however, I’m sitting here wanting to write, but my mind is completely blank. And I’m pretty sure times like this is why tag post were invented, so let’s jump into the tag.

1. What's your favorite candle scent? Soft blanket is my favorite sent, there’s just something very relaxing and comforting about it.

2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister? Hilary Duff.
3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother? Colton Orr, that’s right the Canadian picks a hockey player, but who wouldn’t want an enforcer as a brother.
4. How old do you think you'll be when you get married? I use to say in “in my 20’s”, but I turn 29 this year, so I’m going with never, and I’m going to start collecting cats soon.
5. Do you know a hoarder? No, unless you count me with wax tarts… but you can never have too many of those right?
6. Can you do a split? No
7. How old were you when you learned how to ride a bike? I think I was 6 when I finally got the hang of a 2 wheeler.
8. How many oceans have you swum in? 2
9. How many countries have you been to? 6
10. Is anyone in your family in the army? None in active services.
11. What would you name your daughter if you had one? I always liked Tori.
12. What would you name your son if you had one? Tyler has always been a favourite.
13. What's the worst grade you got on a test? I managed to get an ungraded once….. hangovers and exams don’t mix.
14. What was your favourite TV show when you were a child? Depends how old we’re talking here, I loved the Muppet babies, Mr. Dressup, Garfield and Friends.
15. What did you dress up as on Halloween when you were eight? I think I was a witch that year. 
16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series? No, not a one.
17. Would you rather have an American accent or a British accent? American, it’s easier for most people to understand
18. Did your mother go to college? Yes, she studied journalism
19. Are your grandparents still married? They’re both dead, so until death do us part…. I guess that means no.
20. Have you ever taken karate lessons? No, I played ice hockey… same thing really.
21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is? Are there people out there who don’t?
22. What's the first amusement park you've been to? In Niaraga Falls, Ontario Marine land is the place to go….. I was funny to maybe 2 people reading this, but it was completely worth it J
23. What language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in? Given my job Polish would be really fricking useful.
24. Do you spell the color as grey or gray? I inter change them like you wouldn’t believe. The joys of growing up in a broader city.
25. Is your father bald? No
26. Do you know triplets? Nope
27. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook? Titanic.
28. Have you ever had Indian food? Yes, last night for dinner in actual fact.
29. What's the name of your favorite restaurant? As weird as this sounds I don’t really have a favorite.
30. Have you ever been to Olive Garden? Yes, and I’ll pass.
31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores (Costco, BJ's, etc.)? No
32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender? I believe Nicolas, however, I was meant to be Nicole up to the moment my mom saw me.
33. If you have a nickname, what is it? I don’t really have one, I was the energizer bunny growing up. Mainly because my mouth kept going and going.
34. Who's your favorite person in the world? My mom.
35. Would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs? Rural, but with amazing internet speeds.
36. Can you whistle? ish
37. Do you sleep with a nightlight? No, but my laptop and or tv tends to always be on
38. Do you eat breakfast every morning? I work nights so my meals are a little messed up, but I try and eat something light before bed.
39. Do you take any pills or medication daily? Yeah, that magic one that keeps babies away.
40. What medical conditions do you have? Asthma (very well managed asthma) and Rosacea if you want to call that a medical condition.
41. How many times have you been to the hospital? A lot.
42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo? Of course.
43. Where do you buy your jeans? I think the ones I have on are from Yours, but I shop all over the place.
44. What's the last compliment you got? “You’re the only one that actually seems to know what they’re doing.” When it comes to lorry drivers…. That’s a compliment.
45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning? Only when I wish I wouldn’t.
46. What flavor tea do you enjoy? Strawberry tea is one of my favorites… if you don’t count ice tea.
47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own? Shoes about 6, flip-flops on the other hand… I can’t count that high.
48. What religion will you raise your children to practice? I won’t, religion is an individual choice, when they're old enough, they can make that decision their self until then I’ll just try and raise good people.
49. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn't real? 7 or 8, I was in the 1st or 2nd grade, right around the time I got chicken pox.
50. Why do you have a blog? Because if I didn’t my mind would explode.
Anyways, I hope you guys found this insightful and maybe know me a little better now. If you decide to do this tag leave me a link below and I’ll be sure to check it out. As always my dears, stay and play safe.

Love,
The Honest Bitch
xoxo 

Friday 26 February 2016

2 Months Down, 10 To Go

I can’t believe February is almost over, it feels like just yesterday it was New Years. And now we’re two months in, this year is just flying by.

February has been the month of ghosts of boyfriends past, which is almost fitting given the fact it was Valentine’s Day this month. I’m not sure why so many exes popped up, but it severed a strong reminder that I am where I want to be. Nothing they’ve said has been tempting, it’s been kind of nice to realize all the bullshit over there years has led me in the right place.

Work has been testing; I have had my moments, but overall I’m getting there. I’ve taken a step back and in doing so, I’ve managed to take a step forward. If that makes any sense. I’m still a little “grrrrr”, but I’m doing a much better job of dropping it once I leave and actually being able to enjoy my time off.

On the blog front, I’m really enjoying the new schedule. I’m about 2 weeks ahead with my writing, which takes off a lot pressure and allows me to enjoy the process more. It also means if I get sick or I just don’t want to write, I don’t have to. It’s also meant I’ve been able to do some bonus posts, which I don’t normally do, but have brought in a lot of new readers, a lot of which are sticking around and reading some of my old posts which is awesome.

March is going to be very work focused, I have a few OT shifts lined up which means I won’t have a whole lot of time for extracurricular’s. I don’t really mind, it keeps me out of trouble and thanks to the way they’re lined up I’ll even get some sleep in. The plan for March was to get all my social media back in line, but I think that goal may have to wait until April.

Anyways, you lovely people, I am going to go and write an assy email to a company who doesn’t seem to understand when I pay for next day delivery I expect it the next day. But before I go I will leave you with this question, What is your goal for March? Let me know in the comment box below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday 19 February 2016

Not There

In case anyone is wondering, I may it a grand total of 22 days before I completely lost my shit at work. I’m fairly impressed with that; everyone deals with the work bullshit differently. Some people get vindictive, some shut down, some smile and go home and drink; I cry, shake it off and make a mental note to get revenge later.

Not the most positive way of dealing with things, but it works. It goes strongly against the whole “don’t feed the bad wolf” upbringing I had, but I never liked that story anyways. I also really hate the smell of smudging which is the other thing that I keep getting told to do right now. Plus, I can’t smudge the office, so that’s not the most practical advice.

I keep getting told just be Canadian, it’ll get you through. Meaning be nice and polite and fall back on my upbringing. Solid advice and I know it, but sometimes getting into the head space where you can listen to solid advice is half the battle and today, right now I’m not there.

Anyways, I’m going to go and get ready for work. But before I do, I leave you with this question, how do deal with work bullshit? Let me know in the comment box below. And as always, stay and play safe. 

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday 12 February 2016

A 2016 Outlook On Mr.X

It’s two days before Valentine’s Day so it seems only fitting I do an Mr. X post; the first Mr. X post of 2016 I might add. He sent me a message, be it 3 plus weeks ago by the time you’re reading this, but I wanted to talk it out.

He started off his message by stating my blog seems to be a little tame these days. Which is completely true. I’m not dating these days, I’m focused on work and when I’m not at work I’m decompressing, so I don’t commit murder when I’m back at work.

He then went on to say he was an idiot with me and that he was sorry. I told him there was nothing to be sorry about, which there isn’t. We made peace many moons ago, that’s why we still talk and why we’re still friends.

He then said this “It wasn’t an apology. I was an outspoken regret.” and went on to say he wished he had a second chance and that we had met later in life. This got me thinking.  

I regret nothing in regards to Mr. X, don’t get me wrong, it was horrible at the time and in all honesty, for many years later. But it shaped me. I can honestly say if it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t be the person I am today.

He is the reason I am so strong, he’s the reason I will not settle, he is the reason I am so steadfast in my belief and knowledge of what I want. I’m eternally grateful for him being such a cunt to me all those years ago. I would be a very different person if it wasn’t for him.

Don’t get me wrong, I do occasionally wonder what would have happened if things had gone differently between us, but I’m fairly certain it wouldn’t have worked out. We’re very different, yet our personality traits are very similar. He’s a conservative, reserved, Mormon. And I’m a liberal, non-reserved Agnostic. We would have either balanced each other perfectly or killed each other. And given our temperaments, particular back then, my money is on one of us being in jail right now.

The idea of “what if we met later in life” is interesting, but without his influence I wouldn’t where I am today and because of that, I doubt I’d have the skills needed to deal with a personality like his. Hell, if it wasn’t for him, I’d probably would have settled, and be married by now so meeting him wouldn’t even be a possibility.

He ended our conversation with a simple question “are you happy?”. Maybe not such a simple question.

I’m not unhappy, I have what I need. I have people around me I care for and that care for me. I’m very blessed and I know that. Am I as happy as I could be? No. I bottle a lot of stuff up, I don’t really have anyone to lean on and despite having people around me, I have pretty high walls so nobody knows everything.


But would a change a thing? No. I like the person I am. And in all honesty, I like the person Mr. X has become as well. I’m not sure how much of it he can see him self, but he’s come a long, long way. He’s practically a human these days. I’m incredibly proud of him.

Anyways, that’s enough of that, I’m off to grab a nice warm bath and finish off the book I’m reading. But before I go I’ll leave you with this question; are you happy? Let me know in the comments box below. And as always, stay, and play, safe.



Love,
The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Thursday 11 February 2016

Cohorted Black Edition: February 2016

Let me start by saying I am sorry this is the 3rd unboxing you’re seeing in a row, it’s just how they’ve arrived this month and where they’ve fell in relation to my normal blogging schedule. On the bright-side there will be a shiny new post all about Mr. X up tomorrow, so those of you that don’t enjoy these unboxing have that to look forward to.

Back to the unboxing, I received my February Cohorted Black Edition box about 10 minutes ago, so I thought I’d hope on and show you what's inside. This is the most expensive box I receive and I’m currently on the fence about keeping it. I like to give a box 6 months before I cancel it, this is month 4 and it’s not looking good.

With that said, let’s see what’s inside….

Dove – True Tone Underarm Dark Mark Eraser: Two things right off the bat; one this isn’t the Pixi Crayon Combo the booklet says I should have and two; what kind of bullshit product is this? This product went from the box, to my hand, straight to the bin. Utterly useless.

Elemis- Pro Collagen Hydra-Gel Eye Masks: Good Brand, nice product, I’m looking forward to giving them a try and seeing how they compare to my favorite Skyn Iceland eye mask.

bareMinerals – Night Treatment in Medium: Not sure on this one, my skin isn’t a big fan of bareMinerals products so I may not risk it and just pass it along.

Cargo – Long Wear Lips Gloss in Tokyo: I don’t tend to like Cargo Cosmetics, that's me a personal thing, that said; the lip gloss seems ok, not too sticky when I swatched it. The problem being, it’s in a bright red shade and I’m not Taylor Swift so I’ll be passing this item along as well.

Marc Jacobs- LOLA: It’s a perfume sample, the positive being it’s a spray sample. It’s smells ok, I’m more of a sweet smell kind of girl, but I’m not heartbroken with this one.

Chanel – Long-Wear Luminous Eyeshadow in Apparition: This is a greyish blue shade which isn’t my favorite, I’m more of a brown, neutrals girl myself. I may try this as a base, but it all honestly, it felt very oily on my hand. I kind of think this may cease like bitch, but I will give it a go.

Out of the 6 items in this box, I’m looking forward to using 1 of them. Like I said, this box is on the bubble, it really isn’t my favorite nor do I feel like it’s worth the money. That said, I’m going to go and put these things away and I shall see you guys tomorrow with a non-unboxing post. As always, my dears, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch  
xoxo