Friday 12 February 2016

A 2016 Outlook On Mr.X

It’s two days before Valentine’s Day so it seems only fitting I do an Mr. X post; the first Mr. X post of 2016 I might add. He sent me a message, be it 3 plus weeks ago by the time you’re reading this, but I wanted to talk it out.

He started off his message by stating my blog seems to be a little tame these days. Which is completely true. I’m not dating these days, I’m focused on work and when I’m not at work I’m decompressing, so I don’t commit murder when I’m back at work.

He then went on to say he was an idiot with me and that he was sorry. I told him there was nothing to be sorry about, which there isn’t. We made peace many moons ago, that’s why we still talk and why we’re still friends.

He then said this “It wasn’t an apology. I was an outspoken regret.” and went on to say he wished he had a second chance and that we had met later in life. This got me thinking.  

I regret nothing in regards to Mr. X, don’t get me wrong, it was horrible at the time and in all honesty, for many years later. But it shaped me. I can honestly say if it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t be the person I am today.

He is the reason I am so strong, he’s the reason I will not settle, he is the reason I am so steadfast in my belief and knowledge of what I want. I’m eternally grateful for him being such a cunt to me all those years ago. I would be a very different person if it wasn’t for him.

Don’t get me wrong, I do occasionally wonder what would have happened if things had gone differently between us, but I’m fairly certain it wouldn’t have worked out. We’re very different, yet our personality traits are very similar. He’s a conservative, reserved, Mormon. And I’m a liberal, non-reserved Agnostic. We would have either balanced each other perfectly or killed each other. And given our temperaments, particular back then, my money is on one of us being in jail right now.

The idea of “what if we met later in life” is interesting, but without his influence I wouldn’t where I am today and because of that, I doubt I’d have the skills needed to deal with a personality like his. Hell, if it wasn’t for him, I’d probably would have settled, and be married by now so meeting him wouldn’t even be a possibility.

He ended our conversation with a simple question “are you happy?”. Maybe not such a simple question.

I’m not unhappy, I have what I need. I have people around me I care for and that care for me. I’m very blessed and I know that. Am I as happy as I could be? No. I bottle a lot of stuff up, I don’t really have anyone to lean on and despite having people around me, I have pretty high walls so nobody knows everything.


But would a change a thing? No. I like the person I am. And in all honesty, I like the person Mr. X has become as well. I’m not sure how much of it he can see him self, but he’s come a long, long way. He’s practically a human these days. I’m incredibly proud of him.

Anyways, that’s enough of that, I’m off to grab a nice warm bath and finish off the book I’m reading. But before I go I’ll leave you with this question; are you happy? Let me know in the comments box below. And as always, stay, and play, safe.



Love,
The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Thursday 11 February 2016

Cohorted Black Edition: February 2016

Let me start by saying I am sorry this is the 3rd unboxing you’re seeing in a row, it’s just how they’ve arrived this month and where they’ve fell in relation to my normal blogging schedule. On the bright-side there will be a shiny new post all about Mr. X up tomorrow, so those of you that don’t enjoy these unboxing have that to look forward to.

Back to the unboxing, I received my February Cohorted Black Edition box about 10 minutes ago, so I thought I’d hope on and show you what's inside. This is the most expensive box I receive and I’m currently on the fence about keeping it. I like to give a box 6 months before I cancel it, this is month 4 and it’s not looking good.

With that said, let’s see what’s inside….

Dove – True Tone Underarm Dark Mark Eraser: Two things right off the bat; one this isn’t the Pixi Crayon Combo the booklet says I should have and two; what kind of bullshit product is this? This product went from the box, to my hand, straight to the bin. Utterly useless.

Elemis- Pro Collagen Hydra-Gel Eye Masks: Good Brand, nice product, I’m looking forward to giving them a try and seeing how they compare to my favorite Skyn Iceland eye mask.

bareMinerals – Night Treatment in Medium: Not sure on this one, my skin isn’t a big fan of bareMinerals products so I may not risk it and just pass it along.

Cargo – Long Wear Lips Gloss in Tokyo: I don’t tend to like Cargo Cosmetics, that's me a personal thing, that said; the lip gloss seems ok, not too sticky when I swatched it. The problem being, it’s in a bright red shade and I’m not Taylor Swift so I’ll be passing this item along as well.

Marc Jacobs- LOLA: It’s a perfume sample, the positive being it’s a spray sample. It’s smells ok, I’m more of a sweet smell kind of girl, but I’m not heartbroken with this one.

Chanel – Long-Wear Luminous Eyeshadow in Apparition: This is a greyish blue shade which isn’t my favorite, I’m more of a brown, neutrals girl myself. I may try this as a base, but it all honestly, it felt very oily on my hand. I kind of think this may cease like bitch, but I will give it a go.

Out of the 6 items in this box, I’m looking forward to using 1 of them. Like I said, this box is on the bubble, it really isn’t my favorite nor do I feel like it’s worth the money. That said, I’m going to go and put these things away and I shall see you guys tomorrow with a non-unboxing post. As always, my dears, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch  
xoxo

Tuesday 9 February 2016

GlossyBox Unboxing - February 2016

I thought I’d throw another bonus post at you lovely people, since work woke me up just after midnight and I can’t get back to sleep. This time it is my February Glossybox.

The theme of this month’s box is Beauty Soulmates and I have to say the box itself is adorable. Just in case you’re wondering Glossybox is £10 plus p&p a month and for that you receive 4 – 6 items, normally full sized. GlossyBox tends to have higher end items, but there’s a mix. It’s normally one of my favorite boxes to receive.


So let’s jump in shall we, in the box this month there is….. 

Nicka K New York - 24H Waterproof Eyeliner in Dark Bown: I won’t say this is dark brown, it’s definitely buildable to dark-ish brown, but with one swipe it’s fairly light. It seems to be fairly creamy, and easy to smudge out, and once it had set on my hand it was a bugger to wipe off. I personally don’t wear brown liner, but I might give it a go as an eye shadow base.

MUA- Power Pout Glaze Low Voltage Glass in Allure: It’s pretty don’t get me wrong, but for such a sheer product it is very sticky. I don’t mind a sticky gloss, it normally means the colour will stay longer, but this sticky and uncomfortable, and has a brush applicator on top of that… given how many products I have in my collection, I’m going to give this one a miss. 

The Vintage Cosmetic Company – Floral Slated Tweezers: I’ve received these in a subscription box before, I just can’t remember which one. They’re cute, they work will and I lose tweezers like you wouldn’t believe so I’m happy.

Naobay – Protective Hair Mask Volume Conditioner: It says this is a luxury size, but you may as well call this full sized, it’s 200ml and the full sized item is 250ml…. What’s 50ml between friends. It smells… like nothing really there is a faint plant smell, it has Aloe as an ingredient so I’ll assume that’s the smell. I love my Macadamia Deep Repair Mask, but since I have this I will definitely give it ago.

Wilkinson Sword – Intuition Razor: I like my Venus razor so I doubt I’ll be trying this. Nice item, just not something that wowed me.

Overall, not a bad box, not my favorite, but I definitely feel like I got my money's worth and I’m looking forward to trying on the hair mask. Anyways, I am going to go back to bed. Hope you lovely people are still enjoying these unboxing and until next time, stay and play safe.

Love,
The Honest Bitch  
xoxo

Saturday 6 February 2016

Birchbox Unboxing - February 2016

I should be fast asleep right now, but the mailman rudely woke me up and for whatever reason I can’t get back to sleep so I thought I’s make the most of it and do a quick Birchbox unboxing.

In this month’s box there are 5 items and one bonus item and at first glance I’m pretty pleased with what I see. Inside this month you get....

Spectrum Collections: Tapured Powder Brush - The brush is a cute color and super soft, feel like pretty good quality. I’ll definitely use it. All and all not a bad start.

LOC- One and Done Shadow Stick in Perfect Cents: I know this product was done in collaboration with Tati on Youtube, so I was a little sad not to see her cute branding on this in the UK. That said, this shadow stick is amazing. So soft and creaming, very blendable and super pigmented, I can’t wait to use it.

Ole Henriksen: Truth Serum Collagen Booster: Good brand, good sample size. My skin has been freaking out lately, so I won’t give a try straight away, but once it calms down, I look forward to throwing it in the mix. 

Ayres – Body Butter in Patagonia: Not thrilled about this one.  It kind of smells like old lady or Jasmine and rosemary as the jar may say. I’ll be passing this one along, it just isn’t for me.

The Balm – Frat Boy: I’ve nearly bought this blush about a 100 times, but for whatever reason I’ve always changed my mind at the last minute and removed it from my cart so I’m very happy to see it this box.

L. Erickson – Grab & Go Ponytail Holder: is the bonus item, it’s a red hair tie… I have no feelings on this one. I’ll use it. So I guess that’s a win?

All and all anther great box from Birchbox. I hope you enjoyed this bonus post and I’m going to go and down a couple cans of Monster before work. But, before I go I have this question for you; what subscription boxes do you get and which do you enjoy most? Let me know in the comments below and as always stay and play safe.

Love,
The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday 5 February 2016

Valentine’s Day Survival Guide

I’ve been doing some reading on the notion of “surviving Valentine’s Day” when single. Let me start by saying I’m not certain there is anything to survive; it’s just a day like any other, but it does make for some hilarious reading.

A lot of these so called survival guides suggest avoiding the color red and cheesy films, and heart shaped anything. Some suggest sending yourself flowers and chocolates. Some others go as far as to suggest you shouldn’t even go out of the house or go out with girlfriends because “it’s sad and pathetic”.

I personally think the idea that your relationship status should impede your happiness is sad and pathetic, but each to their own. That said, there are some things I like to do on Valentine’s Day when I’m not romantically attached, to make the day more enjoyable and fun. 

The first and most important is to turn off my phone. There is nothing like a supposed romantic holiday to drag up ghosts from relationships past. The best thing to do to preserve your happiness is turn off your phone and avoid that drama altogether.

The next thing I like to do is have a pamper afternoon; take a long bath, do some masks. Just look after me. I mean…. There’s nobody I love more than me so why not show myself how much I care.

The last thing I like to do is have friends over, have a drink, play some games just have a giggle. Not because I don’t want to be alone, but because it’s fun and why not have fun when everyone else is out fighting because their partner forgot to get them a card.

I’ll be honest, I tend to have much better Valentine’s Day single then I ever have in relationships. Maybe that’s because romance makes me horribly uncomfortable or maybe it’s because Valentine’s is just like any other day and when you treat it special… you’re bound to be disappointed. Whatever the reason, don’t let a calendar determine your happiness.  

Anyways, I have to go and get some much needed sleep. But, before I do I have this question for you, how will you be spending your Valentine’s Day? And will you be spending it single? Let me know your plans in the comment box below. And as always, stay and play, safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch
xoxo 

Friday 29 January 2016

One Month Down, 11 More To Go

One month down, 11 more to go. With one month of 2016 basically behind I thought I’d take the opportunity to do a quick recap.

My New Year’s resolution is… slow going. I’m not sure I’m any more positive, however, I am getting better at knowing when to walk away. I haven’t melted down at work yet this year. I just walk away, go relax upstairs for 10 minutes and then get at it. Which I guess is a small victory.

I’m about half way through reading Emotional Vampires at Work; which is surprisingly more useful than I thought it would be. I’m not so sure I’ll be able to implement a lot of it, but it’s been very useful in helping me understand my own automatic responses. Hopefully with a little time I’ll be able to shut of that autopilot mode and stay out of trouble…. I’m not holding my breath though.

In other work related news, I think I’ve finally convinced my old supervisor to apply for a job at my place. There is an ops manager job going, which is apparently rare because they like to promote from within so it’s not normal to walk into a management role, but the job is up and he’d be prefect. So I’m keeping everything crossed. It would be really nice to have the team back together.

So, that’s been my January, I’m still an angry, non-positive, single bitch, who if it wasn’t for the fear of jail would go on murderous rampage at least once a week. However, the year is young, who knows, maybe by December I’ll be all rainbows and magical unicorns.

Anyways, you sexy people, I am going to go and have a relaxing pamper night, but before I do I have this question for you; how are you getting on with your New Year’s resolutions? Let me know in the comment box below and as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo

Friday 22 January 2016

Leave Me Alone

Do you ever just want to stand up and scream “leave me the fuck alone!”? I don’t know why, but lately that’s me all the time. My disdain for being interfered with is at an all-time high. I have no tolerance for it at all.

Asking stupid questions, nagging, people not doing what they should; causing me to have to do things I should have to, all are flipping my bitch switch at a rapid rate.

I’m starting to think I’m part bear and should be hibernating right now. Which would explain my overwhelming desire to be left alone and why swiping people’s heads off sounds so appealing right now.

That said, it’s not that I’m in a bad mood or anything. I just don't want to go above and beyond. I want to do my job and go home. And please note I said MY job. I don’t want to extend myself, I want to coast. Which may sound bad but, Christmas took a lot of me and being sick over New Year, I need to recharge and am not being allowed to.

It doesn’t help that work is looking at a lot of changes right now; and changes and tiredness and difficult personalities are a horrible mix…. And possibly a deadly one for the next person that asks me a stupid question.

Anyways, I am going to go and get some much needed sleep. But before I do, I shall leave you with this question; what do you do to recharge? Let me know in the comment box below and as always, stay and play safe.

Love,

The Honest Bitch 
xoxo