Happy Halloween!

Good Evening,

Happy Halloween! October 31 – November 1st is said to the point at which the sprits are closet and able to communicate most easily the living. Not many people know this but it’s actually November 1st that’s the hunted day. The history is that people use to dress up on All Hallows' Eve to ward off any harmful sprits from visiting them on All saints day (November 1s) when the sprits are said to be able to reach through from the other world.

I’m not sure if I truly believe in ghosts but for one night a year it’s fun to pretend and just be scared. What other time of year can you be whoever you want to be? Hunted house are my favourite part of Halloween. Sadly England doesn’t really understand how to them. There is nothing like being scared out of skin and running away from a man with a chainsaw. I have some awesome memories from hunted houses over the years.

In other news, my op has been moved forward to November 2nd and my mother operation is now on the 9th. I’m not really worried about my operation I’ve had the same thing done a lot of times now. But I am freaking out about my mom’s, I think she’s going to die. It was a close call last time she was in, ok this is different but I’m really worried. I don’t want to think too much about of I’ll end up crying.

I just wanted to take a chance to thank two very cool people, Jason and Neal. Jason is someone that always knows just what to say to make me feel better and I’m very thankful to have someone that cares for me that much, Even if he hits on me a lot. The other person is Neal and well Neal may be the funniest guy around. He always managed to make me smile, he’s always there to talk to or just listen. He’s also a fellow Leafs fan so that’s always a bonus

Speaking of The Leafs, we lost two shutouts in a round. It has been122 minutes and 24 seconds of game time since the Leafs last scored a goal. The Leafs started this season strong but now they’re sitting in 18th place in the NHL. This season is early put I’m starting to worry that 30th place has own name written all over it.

Did you see Colton Orr’s pink skates tonight? I’m going to post a picture for you. He sported them for Hockey Fights Cancer and you can’t help but feel respect for this tough guy. He may be a fight on the ice but tonight he showed us he’s a good guy.

Anyways it’s now 5am or actually 6 because they clocks went back. Enjoy your extra hours in bed UK people.

Love you

The Honest Bitch

xxxxx

The past week

Hey,

It’s been 7 days since my last blog so I guess it’s time for me to let you know what’s been happening.

I guess the big thing that happen this week is I met my new doctor. Who was very quick to tell me that I will indeed be having another operation in the near future. I knew it was coming but I was in there all of 7 minutes. Most doctors like to inflict pain me before telling they are going to cause me 3 to 4 days of pain and a black and blue back.

In other news..... I don’t really have any. I’ve been hanging out with friends, drinking and staying out of trouble until I have my operation. Oh I do have news my mother operation has been put off until the 8th so I have till then to worry.

I’m choosing not to talk about my beloved Maple Leafs. After their recent showings they’re not worthy of my words.

I’m off guys. Stay safe.

Love

Queen Bee / The Honest Bitch (Same Person)

xxxx

Leafs are number 1 (I just like saying that)

Good Morning,

Let’s start this blog with the awesome news that the Toronto Maple Leafs have gone 4 – 0 to start the season. That’s right the29th team in the league last year are currently undefeated. Just to rub salt in the wound they’re actually number 1 in the league right now. They play the Islanders tonight so we’ll see if they can make it 5 – 0.

I’ve started chatting to guys again. I’m still off guys but maybe if the right guy pops up I’ll change my mind. I’ve had so much bad luck with guys in the past year; no one can blame me of taking some me time.

My back has been really bad the past few weeks so I’m being forced to take things easy. It’s killing me; I’m the sort of person that will push through the pain until I can’t do it anymore. I’m at that stage now and I just have to take painkillers and flake out. I’m at the hospital in a few days and with a bit of luck this new doctor will be able to sort it out.

Anyways guys I’m off to catch up on some gossip.

Stay safe guys.

Queen Bee xx

Thanksgiving

I hope everyone had a lovely Thanksgiving and there wasn’t too much drama we all know what being forced to spend time with your family can be like.

Personally I don’t have a lot to talk about, my back as been playing up so I haven’t really been able to do much. That needs to change though. I miss having a guy around. I miss cuddles but more than anything I miss sex.

I spent years having meaningless one nightstands and short term relationships. This is the first time in 9 years I haven’t been getting fucked regularly. I guess if I want to get fucked I really need to start putting myself out there again. I’ll change my mind after the first weirdo but until then I’m out there.

In none sex related news, the Leafs seem to have a hockey team. They started the season 2 – 0, they have goaltending, they have speed and they seem to have talent. If they keep playing this way they may see that playoff this season.

Love Always

Queen Bee

Xxx

Health Problems = Stress

Hey Dolls,

I hope everyone is alright, I’m a little off game thanks, to my mother who doesn’t like to worry me. But when she leaves me in the dark, I end up warring more. I’m an only child and most of my life it’s just been the two of us so I understand her wanting to protect me but at the same time sometimes it’s better to be clued in and prepared rather than shocked and devastated.

In other news, it’s looking like I may be having back op number?....6,7 I’ve lost count. It’s starting to become a way of life. I’m in so much pain nowadays any relief I can get is worth it. I just wish a doctor could tell me what is actually wrong with my back. They treat the symptoms but that’s not an answer.

I was planning on talking to you guys about my lack of dating but I’m not really in the mood to talk about guys. I need to get some sleep. Hockey starts tomorrow tonight and I need to be up for that. Hockey is my one true love. It’s a shame life isn't more like a game of hockey.

Anyways I’m off to bed my dolls. As always my dears stay safe.

Love you

Queen Bee xxxx

Looking back

Hey Dolls,

It’s Thursday night and I’m home alone doing some thinking, about decisions I’ve made and people I’ve chosen to date. The list of these occupations is sad at best. I always pick the wrong guys, for the wrong reasons.

I’m single because I decided to break the pattern of me dating guys who are clearly losers. I also really couldn’t stomach getting hurt again. There is only so many times a person can bounce back from being squashed before they just stay flatted.

It’s said you only get two great loves and I’ve had both mine, I don’t know if that means I’m destined to spend my life alone with a million cats or if I’m just special and will have more than two great loves that shaped and change me. I guess knowing at my age I’m out of the normal amount of chances to find love means I’ll just have to be enough for me. I’ll have to catch myself when I fall, I’ll have to be the understanding person who says it’s ok to mess up and I’ll have to look after myself and give myself all the love I can because there is no grantees there’s a Mr. Right out there for me.

I know the tone of this is a little sad and not my normal playful self but sometimes it’s important to take a look back at where you’ve come from so you can see where it is you’re going.

In better news the Leafs looked very good in last night’s game. There might be a little hope for them making the playoffs this year. Fingers crossed.

Anyways dolls I’m off to bed. Sweet dreams and as always, stay out of trouble.

Love Always

Queen Bee x x x x x x
(The Honest Bitch)

Another ghost hunts me

Good Evening Dolls,

I hope everyone is well tonight. Thanks to the start of the preseason I’ve been having a lot of late nights, I’m not knocking it, I’ve missed hockey. However being up later means a change in the people I talk to. This lead to a not so fun conversation.

Do you remember Daniel S? In case you don’t he is the guy I lost my virginity to. He messaged me on facebook last night. When I saw he’s name popped up I knew I was in for trouble. About every 6 months he pops up in one way or another. He wants to hook up but I feel if I end up with him, I feel like I’ve wasted 10 years of my life. Plus he has kids now and we all know my feelings on kids. Back to my story, last night he sent me a message asking how I was and I was kind of hoping it would end there but he then asked me how my love life is. Why do exes have to ask that question? I don’t like talking to exes anyways and my love life is my least favourite thing to talk to them about.
In other news I have way too many ex boyfriends. I’ve also slept with a few too many too but hey that’s what makes me...me.

Its bed time guys, sweet dreams.

Love you

Queen Bee xx